Wednesday, March 31, 2021


I think a distinguishing factor that sets our modern age apart from all others before is a lack of purpose. An aimlessness. We aren't grounded to reality or natural law, instead we're airy and meandering, following whims and deriving pseudo-meaning from media-driven movements. And I believe it to be this lack of purpose that is responsible for many of the ills we face, both as individuals and societies.

This is why I like to examine purpose- what it is, how we should orient toward it, what our relationship with it ought to be, and how we can define and incorporate it into our lives. Yesterday, on a coastal afternoon walk, I tried to think more about it.

And here are the questions I came up with:

  • Should our purpose(s) be something that we naturally enjoy and are drawn to? Or should it be more of a sacrifice? Or both?
  • Should purpose be in service to some greater good, or overall betterment of society or the world at large? Or should it be more localized, even familial? (There's a fine argument to be made, of course, that the two aren't separate)
  • How can we hone in on our real and noble purpose(s) with most of us being so unaware of how influenced our minds are by mainstream narratives and popular culture? (I reiterate this a lot because, my goodness, 99.9% of us have had our brains completely rewritten by the narratives of the day that media feed us- so that, for example, when we see a violent riot right in front of our faces, we will actually redefine it as a peaceful protest after we've read some agenda-driven articles. Our own common sense and experiential knowledge would tell us otherwise, but we really do let media and the fear of social ostracism skew our thinking and the filter we view the world through, so I think this can't be looked over, because I see many people virtue signaling as they react to trends. Did you think to tear the statue down before media told you to? Or to ban Dr. Seuss? Did these ideas come to them originally in a genuine form and from sincere concern and desire for change? No, they are merely reacting to political trends, and letting media outlets, which are merely businesses, dictate their ideologies and reactions, and view of reality. If they don't respond in these ways, they risk isolation from their 'woke' peers, and the normalcy bias is strong in humans, 2020 has shown us that much. But... that was quite a digression. I just want to point out that we need to be very careful when determining what is really us and ours, versus the thoughts that are planted in us on a daily basis, by design, as part of a long-term agenda that has been in motion for centuries, but especially since the 1940's. And especially as it relates to choosing our life's purpose around these elitist control tactics).

For many women, raising a family is their purpose. I believe that would be a very rewarding experience, and if done well and with intention is one of the most noble tasks-- to raise mentally, spiritually, emotionally, and physically healthy offspring.
While I do have a strong nurturing instinct, I'm less drawn to family life, lacking much of the Demeter archetype, and relating more to the Aphrodite archetype (discussed further in the video below). I gravitate toward research and study, nature, and divinity. My mind craves quiet and space where it can become clear and ride the current of creativity and ideas. 

I believe if life were longer, I would enjoy having children. Or if I would have had things sorted out much earlier in life. But, coming from a setting where I had to teach myself the important things in life, both from intentionally seeking but also from experience (often failures), I didn't make the choices or have the ideologies early on that would've laid the groundwork for a healthy family. 

I am still young enough to produce children, and will be for many more years still, so I ask myself often if this is something I should align to as one of my purposes in life. And the answer is still uncertain. Yet, my purposes of devotion to God and dedicating my life to deepening that relationship, to contributing in the realm of research and knowledge sharing on various topics, regeneration of soils and turning barren land into food-bearing landscapes, helping people heal using various modalities, and simply spreading inspiration, all of these feel very certainly like purposes of mine. Maybe I can also combine motherhood with them? I s'pose time will tell. For now, I feel clearly more drawn to something like researching the truth of where the Celts originated (and therefore helping give a people their identity or lied about history back to them), or growing enough food to provide for my local community, as examples, than I do about reproducing.

But I'll continue to think on purpose and to expand and clarify its meaning as I come to discover it myself. This is just an unedited flow of thought, so certainly not finalized yet in my mind.